Bittersweet

Today our lives look much different than they did yesterday morning. Yesterday I had job interview. I walked out not sure how it went... who ever knows about these things. I think interviews are a little silly. Just call references and be done. Don't ask me first what my references will say. But I digress. I walked back into my house a little meloncholy as I watched my beautiful girls laugh and play. I got a call at 3:30 offering me the job. 5th grade reading/ language arts/ social studies. Everything about the job is great... except I think they would frown upon me bringing my children. I accepted, again a little down. What a strange feeling. I know this is God answering our prayers. Josh has been on the phone with loan people all day and it's looking like things will work out so that we don't have to move twice (still praying on that one!!!). I'm glad I have a degree so that I can have a job where I don't work nights or weekends or summers and still get paid fairly well for it. I'm glad that I absolutely love teaching and that I'm pretty good at it. And yet, I am heartbroken. How will I survive not spending each day with these girls that fill my life to overflowing? Especially now that I've had that. Will they survive this? Will they still grow up and be wonderful productive adults? Will they still love God? Will they still love me? I know I should be grateful... and truly I am, but I'm sad too. So please pray for me that as things move along I can be the best working Mommy in the world. My girls deserve that and so much more.