It's been a while

I'm gonna keep this on the down low for a while.  We all know I'm not good at keeping up with this, but alas... I try again.  Partly because as I go through life thinking in facebook posts and blog stories.  Strange I know.  And although I love for people to read, it is mostly so I don't forget all these things that are just so "daily".

Our life is quite a bit different from my last post.  On New Year's Eve life was ticking on along.  We were in our awesome house, in our awesome state, in our nice little town.  I had a job, and enjoyed it, and was good at it.  Josh had a job, and enjoyed it, and was good at it.  Life was comfortable.  We knew what was going to happen next.  I could plan for the future.  (A good thing for me!)

Now our life looks completely different.  We live in a townhouse.  It's wonderful, and a serious blessing from God.  The downfall.  It's in OHIO.  Which is also ok, but not Texas.  Afterall, nothing is Texas but Texas.  We live in a town.  I know where the grocery store and Walmart and Target are.  Josh has a new job.  He loves it.  It's different.  I now have a job, but it was touch and go for a while.  I will be teaching high school geometry.  I'm scared out of my mind.  I know in my head and my heart that I will be fine.  Kids are the same in Ohio and Texas.  It's just the content that has changed.  I can learn content.  But occasionally the doubt demon sneaks in and I get scared all over again.  And then I have to remind myself that God is in control, and He knows where we are, and He will take care of us.

So that brings me to today's thought.  I read a another blog about God's miracles throughout the Aurora shootings just a few minutes ago.  I thought WOW!  That is an amazing miracle.  And then I thought, DUH!  All miracles are amazing, and why am I surprised?  It is God afterall.  I always think it's funny that in the aftermath of tragedy, people ask "WHERE WAS GOD?!?!?!"  And yet, He was THERE!!!  He was there with the jammed gun, and he directed the bullet to go through the BIRTH DEFECT in the girls brain so that her brain wasn't damaged at all!  He was there with the lady that rarely goes to the movies, but took her daughters for the special treat.  GOD WAS THERE!!!  Do I wish that the tragedy hadn't happed?  Absolutely!  I have a hard time understanding how anyone could choose to do this.  But the fact is, that way back at the beginning God created us to choose.  Do I wish he hadn't?  Sometimes.  But I know how much sweeter is is when the girls CHOOSE to be nice, CHOOSE to do the right thing, CHOOSE to love.  God could have made us robots.  But He knew in His infinite wisdom that it's better for us, more meaningful for us, if we CHOOSE.  One day Jesus will return, and we won't have these tragedies.  The evil will be wiped away.  But in the meantime, God is HERE.  We just have to CHOOSE Him.